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Unoriginal

I envy people who can write words on the page that come together like a joyous song telling a story. I can’t do that. I’m not a poet and am limited in my writing capabilities but it doesn’t stop me from desiring to tell a story. In school, I absolutely hated writing. Being told by a writing teacher in sixth grade that my thoughts were unoriginal didn’t help so it was sheer shock that I landed in an honors writing course in college. It was tough—good—but a challenge. I learned quite a bit but have since forgotten more than I think I acquired. It’s true that one must keep in practice as for a number of things. I’m way out of practice. 🙂

 

A couple of years ago I envisioned a tale — more movie-like than anything else. I didn’t see it as a book of words but I started to write about it. I knew where I wanted to end up…I started with the ending and gave more substance as I went along until I got back to the beginning. That project is fueled by a collection of music pieces. I like it because it has a bit of history in it. Like I said, it’s more movie-like. I can see the scenes like they are real and I can almost touch them in my mind. Gives me goosebumps. It’s not finished… 😀 Just like my life – so many unfinished things.

 

Most of my writing has been at command – not for fun or entertainment. We are all different. Some people have their muses and they continue to write as long as they are moved to do so. I say this all because I realized people write from varying perspectives. Some choose to tell a story of what they know. It can be reality based. Some writers can command characters they create to elaborately unite for a theatrical composition. The words come to life with no or little struggle. There is much power in this because not only do you create a story but you are in command of how you want the reader to absorb each scene.

 

I don’t know why but I began to write several weeks ago. Well, that’s not true. I needed an escape. Fantasy is so much more fun than reality. Unlike the previous project, this one starts at a particular place, with certain people/characters. I don’t really have an ending. I’ve enjoyed taking the characters through different situations, adding locations, adding characters, and doing research for certain parts for which I needed more information.

 

I envision the story in my mind and write the words down. Certain parts have to be in a particular place so I write them in and then go back and fill in between the points like drawing a line on a dot-to-dot picture. I only hope that if I publish it, that people will be able to see the picture that I have drawn and maybe it will make just a bit of sense. What is ironic about all of this is that this story today is not far from the story I wrote for my sixth grade teacher that she labeled unoriginal. Hehehe. This is real life. Some things aren’t original and the really good ones can be repeated… Ok, that’s my take on it. 😀

 

Happy Gardening! 🙂

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If you could see my face, you would see  tears rolling down my cheeks. It is with great sadness that I write this. For a better writing you may want to check my blog, Protect Your  Heart (link), but the latest info is here.

It has been a terrible week already. I had my heart stressed at the doctor’s office Monday and it was so bad that I had to be treated there for a reaction to the drugs–we were waiting to see if I needed to be taken to the ER. It was really scary and I know my oldest daughter was worried. She did so good! This mom could not be any prouder.

I just returned a few hours ago from my husband’s love nest (arghhh). I’m going to spare most of the details but I had asked for prayers for him the other day. There is a lot missing between those two times. My husband is lost and doesn’t know what it means to be married and have vows. When I wrote the book I thought there was still a chance for us to work things out. Now, that I have found out just how deep he is in… No! 

I will tell this. The other woman contacted one of my girls again… People, this is not ok to do under any situation. No, the baby cannot be held accountable but you cannot gloss it over and make everything look ok. This is not a touch-up job and a “Febreze air freshener thing ain’t gonna fix this under no circumstances.

Just when things level out, I get hit in the head with something else. You know, killing me quickly would have been so much more humane. And, for those who think I am telling my daughters how bad their dad is…again, I don’t have to open my mouth. Give someone enough rope and they will hang themselves. YEP. He did. Right now, I am in adrenaline overdrive which I didn’t get over from yesterday–still shaking.

May your gardens grow great and be filled with beautiful bounty and may your heart never feel the pain I have felt for so long! Please take care! I will decide if I will continue blogging but right now….I have to take a break. I need time with God and no one else and nothing else. I will try to keep my morning prayers posted. They are one of the best things I have done.

Again, take care and may God bless you!

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My Boo-boo

The pattern calls for 3 picots and I made 4. What a bad mistake even if it is early on. I thought about doing an alternating sequence but if I can’t remember 3 rather than 4 do you really think I can remember to go 3-4-3-4?? Not in any way, shape, or form–too many cobwebs. And, by adding the extra picot I made the chain longer which will not look right. 😦

I was so happy to get some smaller yarn to try. It is more dainty looking (I cannot say “daintier”). This is a size 20. I had been using a size 10. There is a big difference and the needle I am using now is a size 7 which also makes a difference. Is that confusing enough? The yarn/thread goes even smaller believe it or not. Normally this wouldn’t be a big thing but since the thread is smaller, I could not get the finishing knot out. I still have almost no feeling in the right hand and it has become more cumbersome to use. All of this will have to be trashed—not that it matters about the knots but about the long tail that doesn’t show.

 

If you would like to learn this type of tatting, there are plenty of videos on the web and there is a book I purchased at Hobby Lobby using a 40% coupon making my total to be about $15. It is not the best book but it included needles (not sure all of theirs do). It is called Learn Needle Tatting Step-by-Step by Barbara Foster. This particular book included 4 needles AND a needle threader. A set of needles was about $12 on its own, so I figure I did pretty well.

 

I have a lot to learn and as evident above and there are lots of misfires in that brain of mine. I still confuse right and left but we won’t go there. Have a most blessed day and may you be a light for someone who needs it today. Happy Gardening in all that you do, and we can all become master gardeners on the road of life! Please take care. 😀 

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The day has come! My book is online!!! Whoooo—whoooo!!! I cannot believe this is happening. It is really here. The day has finally arrived!!! After 4 months, the time has finally come—almost to the day that I first typed out several pages in a couple of hours in the darkness of the night.

 

You can access the blog AND book HERE, or click on the photo in the post below or the link on the side. This is something I never thought would happen—one, to write a book and two, to bare so much of my soul. But, it really isn’t about me. It is about life and how we should treat others.

 

The blog is set up so that each page contains a chapter or section of the book with the front page set aside for blogging about certain subjects relevant to relationships and daily life. I have but one aim … one goal … and that is for someone to benefit from these writings even if it is only one person—but, I am hoping it will be more.

 

This has become my baby. I am really proud of it but I cannot take all of the credit. It would not exist except for God. There is no way. I just hope someone is touched in a positive way.

 

This is my gift… It comes from my heart!

 

 

Live and love well!

 

Happy Gardening and please take care of your heart! 😀

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My book blog is ready to go. The photo of the wedding rings isn’t exactly how I wanted but it is good enough. They are put together in the form of an infinity symbol. The inscriptions together say, “I will love you (his) – forever and ever (mine).” A red heart is drawn through the two as if they are tied together. This is the result:

 

 

 

Here is where I am totally nervous—it seriously goes online this week. I will enable the links when it is up and running. I want to be so happily excited and joyous but I am scared silly. I have butterflies and my stomach is in knots. I would appreciate any and all thoughts and prayers. I feel like I am stepping off a high dive for the first time but I don’t know if there is water below.

 

Life doesn’t happen by chance. The choices we make have consequences. If anyone decides to read the book, I apologize. I want you to know that I have changed from the person I used to be and this is a very good thing!

 

May your week be a happy one—Happy Gardening! 😀

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I learned to tat today! I really did. I can’t believe it. The classes began back in September but things prohibited me from getting there. A friend paid my registration fee–thank you! I am not excellent (yet—and I doubt I will get to where I want to be but…) but my picots finally look more alike than the last 100 times I have tried. This lady uses a weaving needle and it is the difference between night and day. I wish my grandmother could see me now. I hope she would be proud of me—her little sugar pie learning something that I can only aspire to be as good as she was and will never come close but I’m trying. I was a quick learner and caught up to where the group is but I want to do some practice runs before I start my towel project. And, I have to teach the girls to tat…

 

Other things…

When I decided to put the book online, I had no idea it would take so long to get the photographs just like I wanted—even some of them aren’t exactly like what I want but I can finally see the light at the end of the tunnel. I have 8 more photos to do plus the “cover” photo needs finishing. I had to redo about half of them because I didn’t like the way they looked after I put them on the page. I really hope this turns out good. You will know when I get it done… I think I need to really celebrate that day because I never thought it would take so much time but then again, I have had some things come up along the way.

 

Have a great day/evening and Happy Gardening! 😀

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Photos

I am working on photos for the book/blog website. The main photo I want is of two wedding bands. I found a photo on the internet. I love it but cannot find where it originated to see if I could get permission to use it or what. I borrowed it and drew a heart in it to see how it would look. I love it. More than likely I will use my current wedding bands for the photo, and hopefully, I will be able to take all or most of the photos needed. This is what I have been busy with.

 

I have long needed a light box and decided to make one this past weekend. Of course I made it after I took the photos of our wedding bands. My youngest has the photo I want to use and is touching it up, but I may go back and begin again using the light box. These things take time to get it just the way I want–I used to be faster at this. I was playing around with some different editing software but still have much work to do as you can clearly tell–I have a large learning curve. I am out of practice taking photos AND editing them. The first two photos were scanned–before digital photography 🙂 . I think the one of the porcelain jewelry box looks pretty good. 

 

Now to get back to work. I hope your day is blessed and great things are happening in your life. Please take care and Happy Gardening!

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I have been a little off lately—my apologies. I’ve made some decisions in my life—thus the changes I mentioned earlier, but they are a little slow in implementing. Some I will share; some I will not.

 

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The book I wrote back in June is finding a home.

  • 😆 I am excited 😆
  • 😕 a little anxious and apprehensive 😕
  • 😥 and a little scared 😥

Through much debating—with myself mostly—I have decided to make a new blog and add the entire book… I really need to work on balancingThe front page of the blog will be for postings about ideas in the book and the rest of the pages will be chapters in the book. This way the book stays current–alive. I hope it works.  

 

I chose to do it this way because I felt that I could not give up all rights to the book. If I want to print a copy of the book to give to someone, I want to do that. I understand the risks of putting it on the internet but I want to share this with others. There may not be a single person to read it, but I feel so passionate about this. I desire no money—it would be nice but was it written for profit? No. 

 

The book has been uploaded and is ready to go after I add some photographs and make the blog publicWish me luck. My biggest obstacle…I have to grow a thicker skin. Criticism has always been difficult because I am so critical of myself. I am sharing some dark secrets I had planned to take with me to my grave. Should you read the book, be warned. 😀  There are things in my past that I am so upset about. It took me a long time to forgive myself but that is part of the story.

 

More writing… There is at least one other book in the works—just barely getting my feet wet and I am not a writer. A post is forthcoming but be warned about it, too. It is not one for the faint of heart and the subject matter will make you wonder if I am ok. I am not a writer but I am passionate about certain things. I am trying to be ok and these writings are part of the catharsis that is helping me to heal.

 

I am still battling health issues and family problems but you know…I’m doing the best I can. Excuse my bluntness. See, my skin is thickening already. 😎

 

Please take care and may you be safe and secure and filled with happiness. Happy Gardening in all of life! 🙂

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Matthew 19:

  • They asked, “Is it lawful for a man to divorce his wife for any and every reason?” 4 “Haven’t you read,” he replied, “that at the beginning the Creator ‘made them male and female,’ 5 and said, ‘For this reason a man will leave his father and mother and be united to his wife, and the two will become one flesh’? 6 So they are no longer two, but one flesh. Therefore what God has joined together, let no one separate.” (NIV)

 

SHE IS BEAUTIFUL

“My, what a beautiful wife you have. Have you told her how much she really means to you? Have you kissed her today and said I love you—and really meant it? Have you thanked God that He has brought you two together?”

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I am here to tell you not to take anything for granted! Enjoy every second of every day and make the most out of it. Show your wife that she means more to you than everything else—not just anything else. Keep her with you in your heart and mind at all times. And, when you forget, tell her how much you love her and return her to her rightful place—the heart. It is what matters.

 

God comes first or should come first in all marriages. I am speaking of the present and will address the past in a minute. God is foremost but your wife is second. No one else can come before her—no one and no thing. And, nothing is equal to your wife. You are a couple in God’s love, bound by a covenant with Him, but she is first in your world just as you are first in her world. That bond between husband and wife is sacred before God. Do not forget it and do not break it. If you did not say your vows before God, you can still do so every single morning and every single night. You might want to renew your vows before God in public. Just be serious about it. What is in your heart matters more than anything. Guard your heart with your life. Your wife is in there. Do everything to keep her safe.

[Protected Content—The preceding is an excerpt from my book.]

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Love is more than what is in the physical sense or what we can see with our eyes. Love is more than sensual urges. Love is caring and compassion. Love is giving. Love is protecting and showing empathy through sorrow and gladness. Love is being there when things look the bleakest, and marriage is the thread that ties all of these together.

 

The vows of marriage are truly sacred and yoke us one to the other. Spouses have an incredible responsibility for themselves and one another. We should never take things lightly or for granted. We should be thankful for each day and our spouse–accepting of this wonderful gift that it is. Show your spouse how much you care, and please, please protect your heart. Your spouse is in there.

 

Happy Gardening in all of your gardens and may they be forever beautiful! 🙂

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During one of my recent nights where I awoke because I could not sleep, I began to write. For the past few months I have been attempting to write a book or something about my trials, my experiences, something that I felt needed to be said, but I could not get very far. I think I have started more times than I can count. I was in hopes that I could write about how there is hope for my marriage to survive an adulterous affair because I believed that we could make things right. As most of you know, there was more to it than just putting the pieces back together. I wanted it to be a book of hope but as time passed, I began to lose hope not only in my marriage but in myself. To be honest, a lot of my hopes have been dashed–obliterated. Maybe this is the point I had to get to understand.

This mini book is written for men, but what man would read a book written by a woman on the subject of marriage? I have no clue. I am not an author—I wish—and I cannot take full credit for this book. I had help, the divine kind. I have no idea what I will do with this but it is the best thing that was ever written using my hands. As I said before, I cannot take all of the credit. I am thinking about self-publishing but again, who will read it? On the other hand, if one person reads it and it helps them, then it would be worth everything. Any suggestions?

I think married men and those who want to be married someday should read it. It is not everyone’s cup of tea but it is how I see things. The

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central theme is about how important it is to appreciate your life but especially your wife, to show her love and adoration, to carry that love in your heart, and to protect it at all costs. It bears a good chunk of my soul and mentions things from my past (dark blemishes and stains are included) that I had hoped I would take to my grave. I chose to include them because it tells of my personal trials with myself before my marriage to my current husband.

There is to be good to come out of my devastation. I believe this mini book is one of those good things. As for my hope and my marriage, I don’t know. I have done everything I could. Not only did the news of the affair devastate my life but this thing we have been doing lately has all but destroyed it. I continue to have more health issues. It has been a bad week and I’m not sure that my broken heart hasn’t contributed to my ordeal. I have to build hope. In the meantime, I have a book written about not allowing hope to die. Did I have to lose hope to get to this place?

May your life be blessed more abundantly than you can ever imagine.

Happy Gardening—always!

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