Archive for November 24th, 2012


from wikipedia


Have you ever watched as an animal falls into a bucket or even a pool of water and cannot get out because the sides are too steep and slick? It is almost akin to quicksand; the more the animal tries the worse the situation gets.


I know that everyone who has been visiting my blog for the past year has felt as the human in this situation and watched as I, the animal, struggled to stay afloat. People have offered me a limb to climb out but I could not catch hold long enough. The more I tried, the harder I fell back into the muck I have been in for so long. And, I won’t get into the heaps of manure that have been dumped heaved in by bucket dump truck loads. It has not been fun to be almost out only to have something to knock me back in like a split-pants funny comedy except it hasn’t been fun OR funny.


Today, as I cling to the branch, I pray that I have enough strength to hold on and climb out so that I am free and safe. Thank you to each and every one who has been there for me, prayed for me, and cheered me on. Last night was a defining one in my life—a sink or swim kind of time. I believe in 2nd chances (in my case we passed second a very long time ago 😉  ). This blog was not begun as a faith blog but at times that is what it became. It is my blog 😀  but as time passed I moved most of the subjects of faith to the other blogs. I don’t mind that, but I want to reclaim this blog as mine and allow it to become what it was truly meant to be. I have said this before and I struggle to do that.


I have been in a deep chasm this week. The details of what happened just before and on Thanksgiving Day would cause your heart to ache—not necessarily for me but for my girls. When we walk in darkness, we cannot find our way. I have a long ways to go before I am out of the cesspool and am truly healed. The wounds are too deep. In other words, I will still be floundering at times and that is ok.


May your gardens grow unlike anything you have ever seen—full and lush—filled with extraordinary beauty. Take care and Happy Gardening! 😀


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